Can't see the wood for the trees.....or the smile!
So this is what happens when I can't sleep...I think...really not good!!
On Tuesday evening between my ‘rescue my life’ by SMS marathon and a long and deep discussion with my ‘potential, unsuitable Poker opponent’, we got onto the subject of who I was SMSing…and why…so I explained…
‘Unsuitable Poker opponent’ then started asking some questions which actually made me wonder about why I was pursuing my ‘opponent of choice’….It is very strange how a complete stranger can cut through the crap and see stuff that you hadn't...
So the conversation went along the lines of “So what do you see in him?" , so I told him…(and yes, Platypus, the dreaded word nice did raise its ugly head again, but as I have mentioned before…I have had my fill of dragon slayers!)..then “So how often have you seen him?”…..very infrequently…I have an evil job for socialising…his seems equally (but differently) evil….”So does he call you?”…mmm, now we seem to be on tricky ground…sometimes, but ditto previous answer…”yes, but he can call you…or SMS or even just call to say Good night..”….mmm, it has never been that kind of a friendship..next question please..."how long have you known him?"...a while (some would consider it a long while)..."and he has never intimated anything other than friendship?"...he's always struck me as being very shy and also very busy and caught up with his life....now these questions are getting uncomfortable...time to change the subject...
Distance and 36 hours reflection can make a huge difference to one's thought process....maybe recent events were catapulted forward unnecessarily and maybe it is time to withdraw to more neutral territory for a more objective view.....
I need to decide whether I am being paranoid or am a test case for this book.
Notwithstanding....and the following may sound shallow but....he has a wonderful smile, the most gorgeous blue eyes and his accent is definitely a bonus and he smells good...really good!! On a slightly deeper note...he seems a fairly gentle soul..would be a good foil to my slightly more agressive, blunt character, I get the feeling that at the end of a long and stressful day of which I have many...he wouldn't press for details until I was ready....and even more important - actually incredibly important...if I wanted to sit and read with no interruption to do anything else...he would let me...(the latter I actually know for a fact!).
On Tuesday evening between my ‘rescue my life’ by SMS marathon and a long and deep discussion with my ‘potential, unsuitable Poker opponent’, we got onto the subject of who I was SMSing…and why…so I explained…
‘Unsuitable Poker opponent’ then started asking some questions which actually made me wonder about why I was pursuing my ‘opponent of choice’….It is very strange how a complete stranger can cut through the crap and see stuff that you hadn't...
So the conversation went along the lines of “So what do you see in him?" , so I told him…(and yes, Platypus, the dreaded word nice did raise its ugly head again, but as I have mentioned before…I have had my fill of dragon slayers!)..then “So how often have you seen him?”…..very infrequently…I have an evil job for socialising…his seems equally (but differently) evil….”So does he call you?”…mmm, now we seem to be on tricky ground…sometimes, but ditto previous answer…”yes, but he can call you…or SMS or even just call to say Good night..”….mmm, it has never been that kind of a friendship..next question please..."how long have you known him?"...a while (some would consider it a long while)..."and he has never intimated anything other than friendship?"...he's always struck me as being very shy and also very busy and caught up with his life....now these questions are getting uncomfortable...time to change the subject...
Distance and 36 hours reflection can make a huge difference to one's thought process....maybe recent events were catapulted forward unnecessarily and maybe it is time to withdraw to more neutral territory for a more objective view.....
I need to decide whether I am being paranoid or am a test case for this book.
Notwithstanding....and the following may sound shallow but....he has a wonderful smile, the most gorgeous blue eyes and his accent is definitely a bonus and he smells good...really good!! On a slightly deeper note...he seems a fairly gentle soul..would be a good foil to my slightly more agressive, blunt character, I get the feeling that at the end of a long and stressful day of which I have many...he wouldn't press for details until I was ready....and even more important - actually incredibly important...if I wanted to sit and read with no interruption to do anything else...he would let me...(the latter I actually know for a fact!).
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